In spite of coming back to hometown, enjoying good meals, away from depression and stress of campus life, one thing had switched off my mood. For once in a blue moon, I lost my temper. I felt screwed. Everything I did FUCKed my day. I laid my ASS off on my FUCKing bed the whole day right after I reached my home. The air was so hot. Even though I turned on the temperature to 16 degrees, it's still FUCKING hot. BF asked mo to go out for Bazaar Ramadan, but I refused to go. Feel extremely FUCKing tired after 10 hours of driving, but I can't sleep.
I feel devastated.I am in the state of AWFULLY EMO all day long.
I rarely express my feeling to anyone else. I rather hold my anger alone. That makes my condition even worst. I can be pretentious to a certain extent. Deep down inside I'm cursing alone.
Right now only I realize that the beliefs 'DON'T CLING TO ANYONE/DON'T TRUST ANYONE' are somewhat true. You cannot be a mind-reader.
I'm a fake pretentious slut, concealing the real me. Blogging could expose my dirty secrets more. I don't want other people to know about all of these, nor did to get people misunderstood. Right now, I think I should set my blog to private, I am the only reader of my own harsh writings, I am the only reader of my dirty little secrets..
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
Oil Price Formula
I found this one interesting formula in Harakahdaily.Net.
The global oil price per barrel = USD 105 (equals to RM 360.15)
The global oil price per barrel = USD 105 (equals to RM 360.15)
1 barrel equals to 159 litre
The value of ringgit compared to USD = RM 3.43
The price per one litre > RM 360.15/ 159 litre = RM 2.27
Government Subsidy = RM 0.30
So, the price now is supposed to be > RM 2.27- RM 0.30 = RM 1.97 (Erk,the actual price before the hike?)
*Note: I had altered the figures stated in the article, as I had just now check the current value of global oil price in Bloomberg.Com and the value of our ringgit.
Maybe the government did not want to rush and reduce it drastically due to the fluctuation, caused by the US economic crisis. But didn't they made a promise to review it monthly?
Friday, September 19, 2008
Bahasa Ibunda
Sudah lama tidak menulis dalam Bahasa Melayu, tiba-tiba terasa rindu.Buat kali kedua, aku cuba menulis. Ketika di tingkatan 5, belajar KOMSAS, Di Hadapan Pulau, karya A. Samad Said, aku mula mengenal frasa "orang jakun" yang selalu digembar-gembur oleh orang kampung Aziz. Sungguh indah kenangan mendalami bahasa sendiri di bangku sekolah. Guru Bahasa Melayu, Cikgu Baruddin pernah memuji aku kerana aku suka mengaplikasikan perkataan-perkataan bombastik di dalam karangan aku. Ya, sedikit perasan. Tapi suka hati lah ini blog aku.
Aku bangga dengan bahasa ibunda aku. Bahasa turun-temurun yang sangat unik, diselitkan dengan bahasa Sanskrit, Arab, Jawa sebelum Portugis celaka menjajah pada 1511. Aku bangga untuk bertutur dalam bahasa sendiri. Apabila Suruhanjaya Reid mencanangkan bahawa termaktub dalam Perlembagaan Persekutuan (Artikel 152), Bahasa Melayu ialah bahasa rasmi, bahasa kebangsaan, aku bangga, kerana ini bangsa nenek moyang aku.
Bukan bermakna aku mengagungkan propaganda 'Ketuanan Melayu' yang palsu.
Bahasa Malaysia atau Bahasa Melayu? Aku lebih gemar dengan istilah Bahasa Malaysia (tidak begitu pasti istilah mana yang terpakai sekarang), kerana ini memanifestasikan Bangsa Malaysia. Bahasa yang patut juga menjadi milik kaum Cina,kaum India, kaum orang Asal, suku-suku kaum lain di Sabah dan Sarawak, setelah asimilasi kaum selama lebih beberapa abad. 'Bahasa Malaysia' sekarang bukan sahaja menjadi medium perantaraan orang Melayu, tetapi juga ketika memesan makanan di kedai mamak, mahupun berurusniaga dengan tauke-tauke cina.
Bahasa ibunda sudah jadi 'universal'.
Sangat menyedihkan, bila ada kaum-kaum sendiri malu untuk berbahasa Melayu. Seperti yang pernah didengar;
"I sound silly when I speak in Malay", ataupun frasa-frasa yang sewaktu dengannya, waimanya membawa makna yang sama.
Kenapa malu? Hina sangatkah?
Kalau Bahasa Inggeris fasih seperti peluru, itu boleh dipertimbangkan. Tetapi, Bahasa Inggeris masih tunggang-langgang, malu pula untuk mengaku tidak tahu bahasa sendiri. Yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong pula berciciran.
Aku ada seorang kawan, berbangsa Cina. Walaupun fasih berbahasa Inggeris dan boleh bertutur Mandarin, masih juga fasih berbahasa Melayu. Ini medium pertuturan kami. Lihat, bangsa lain tidak malupun.
Bagi aku, walaupun dalam arus pemodenan kita harus menguasai bahasa Inggeris untuk bersaing, kita tidak patut lupa pada bahasa asal kita. Aku memperoleh A1 untuk Bahasa Melayu, dan juga A1 Bahasa Inggeris (walaupun SPM bukan kayu justifikasi). Sedikit riak? Tak kisah, ini wacana aku, untuk aku merepek dan menyuarakan pendapat aku. Bagi aku, keseimbangan itu penting. Tak kisah lah aku tak termasuk golongan ala-ala "Upper East Side of Hampthon".
Dari berbincang tentang isu-isu 'ketuanan Melayu', mahupun 'tiga garisan' yang kononnya membela nasib kaum Melayu, ataupun 'Malay Power', lebih baik kita mengutarakan isu bahasa Melayu yang kian terhakis.
Aku bangga dengan bahasa ibunda aku. Bahasa turun-temurun yang sangat unik, diselitkan dengan bahasa Sanskrit, Arab, Jawa sebelum Portugis celaka menjajah pada 1511. Aku bangga untuk bertutur dalam bahasa sendiri. Apabila Suruhanjaya Reid mencanangkan bahawa termaktub dalam Perlembagaan Persekutuan (Artikel 152), Bahasa Melayu ialah bahasa rasmi, bahasa kebangsaan, aku bangga, kerana ini bangsa nenek moyang aku.
Bukan bermakna aku mengagungkan propaganda 'Ketuanan Melayu' yang palsu.
Bahasa Malaysia atau Bahasa Melayu? Aku lebih gemar dengan istilah Bahasa Malaysia (tidak begitu pasti istilah mana yang terpakai sekarang), kerana ini memanifestasikan Bangsa Malaysia. Bahasa yang patut juga menjadi milik kaum Cina,kaum India, kaum orang Asal, suku-suku kaum lain di Sabah dan Sarawak, setelah asimilasi kaum selama lebih beberapa abad. 'Bahasa Malaysia' sekarang bukan sahaja menjadi medium perantaraan orang Melayu, tetapi juga ketika memesan makanan di kedai mamak, mahupun berurusniaga dengan tauke-tauke cina.
Bahasa ibunda sudah jadi 'universal'.
Sangat menyedihkan, bila ada kaum-kaum sendiri malu untuk berbahasa Melayu. Seperti yang pernah didengar;
"I sound silly when I speak in Malay", ataupun frasa-frasa yang sewaktu dengannya, waimanya membawa makna yang sama.
Kenapa malu? Hina sangatkah?
Kalau Bahasa Inggeris fasih seperti peluru, itu boleh dipertimbangkan. Tetapi, Bahasa Inggeris masih tunggang-langgang, malu pula untuk mengaku tidak tahu bahasa sendiri. Yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong pula berciciran.
Aku ada seorang kawan, berbangsa Cina. Walaupun fasih berbahasa Inggeris dan boleh bertutur Mandarin, masih juga fasih berbahasa Melayu. Ini medium pertuturan kami. Lihat, bangsa lain tidak malupun.
Bagi aku, walaupun dalam arus pemodenan kita harus menguasai bahasa Inggeris untuk bersaing, kita tidak patut lupa pada bahasa asal kita. Aku memperoleh A1 untuk Bahasa Melayu, dan juga A1 Bahasa Inggeris (walaupun SPM bukan kayu justifikasi). Sedikit riak? Tak kisah, ini wacana aku, untuk aku merepek dan menyuarakan pendapat aku. Bagi aku, keseimbangan itu penting. Tak kisah lah aku tak termasuk golongan ala-ala "Upper East Side of Hampthon".
Dari berbincang tentang isu-isu 'ketuanan Melayu', mahupun 'tiga garisan' yang kononnya membela nasib kaum Melayu, ataupun 'Malay Power', lebih baik kita mengutarakan isu bahasa Melayu yang kian terhakis.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Home-made delicacies in Ramadhan
Bored with the typical foods at Bazar Ramadhan, which do not suit our Kelantanese taste. So, we planned to make something out of the ordinary. We cooked a range of Kelantanese delights (somewhat influenced by Thais).Bistik Daging for the gravy, along with Siakap Steam & Fried Lala (mixed of sweet,spicy,&salty). Mango Sticky-Rice (Thai influence) for the dessert.
Need any part-time 'bibik'? We're open for hire.*grin*
Need any part-time 'bibik'? We're open for hire.*grin*
Sunday, September 07, 2008
screwed!
Felt screwed days before the QB interview,adrenaline rushed all over the veins hours before it. Well, the interview was to evaluate whether our Law School could be exempted from the eerie CLP exam. A group of students were selected for each subjects, and I was among the 'unfortunate five' for Professional Practice.
It was unfortunate because I'm not good at talking. Forgive my oratory skills.Yes words are my worst weapon. But it's for the future's sake/I would be embarassed before the panel for remaining silent throughout the interview. I put all my anxiety and 'inferiority complex' away.
The interview began. The first Q popped out, "Do you know what's the meaning of 'without prejudice'?"Ugh,I was perplexed for seconds. I had heard this words before, but never learned or scrupulously checked it's meaning,I'm praying hard that the interviewer won't posed that question to me. Luckily, my fellow comrade, Raghuram volunteered to answer(He told me after the interview that he was familiarized with the term during his attachment). The interviewer seem satisfied with his answer.
The next question was pertaining to the details of the course,"What are the topics under this subject?".I volunteered to answer, since this is an easy question or else I would remained silent throughout the interview.Haha. Both of the panels just nodded.
And the tricky questions began, mostly posed by Mdm Hendon, the ex-president of the Bar Council. I cant recall all the questions, but one was "What is the difference between Bar Council and Malaysian Bar"?Everyone started to stare at each other, hoping one of us could solve the tense.She pointed one by one to answer, but all the answers given by us were wrong.She seem a bit cocky, and gave all of us 5 minutes 'lecture' about the difference.
..it's like the government and its cabinet. Can you see the difference? You can see the Cabinet,but not the government..
The other interviewer asked about the Rules of the Practice and Etiquette."Can an advocate act for himself?"All of us replied 'no'. We were confident with the answer, since an advocate cannot appear in a case where he has to be a witness at the same time. He smirked, and asked "Do you read today's news, concerning Datuk Shafee who sued RPK and there was a comment made by another lawyer that he cannot act for himself?"Once again silence filled the air. My conscience said,"Ugh you cannot expect us to read news la..We were tensed all day long..mane la sempat nk baca paper".Pn Hendon slammed us again for not being aware to the surroundings,lawyers must be updated. And one of us uttered the same matters with my conscience before, she said back "Your life would be more hectic once you do your chambering". Her tongue was so sharp, no wonder a woman like her was a President before.
Questions after questions were bombarded.Mostly relating to the topics under our syllabus, and still ANSWERABLE.Each of us were given space to answer.The interview later asked about the impact of the 1988 judicial crisis.Huan Ren answered this question talking about the intervention of Doctrine of Separation of Powers.The man tricked her with "Why the three bodies should be existed separately"?She talked about "check and balance", something we learned in 1st year which I almost forgot. No wonder Natalie called her "Walking Wikipedia".hehe
The guy keep on testing on our General Knowledge, he inquired on the names of the CJ,President of the COA & CJ of the High Court. I volunteered to answer, since I had memorized all the names during the my attachment at Court.Was fortunate enough, my memory could still recall all the names though 8 months had lapsed. He posed another Bonus Question (as what referred to),"How we should address the Judge of the Industrial Tribunal"?.We were so convinced that it is "Tuan", it was correct.
That hanky-panky ex-president posed another question pertaining to the procedure in the disciplinary proceeding. David answered it, but she said she wants to know the exact term. I said "the investigation should be made if there's a merit, if there's no merit it shall be dismissed". He slammed me for putting the word "a" in front of the word "merit", and said that my answer is right, but the usage of the word is wrong. I was SCREWED again. How could I realized that I make a grammar mistake in such a panic time. Feel like it was a MUET test, the examiner meticulously checked your grammar while you're talking..Huh..
The subsequent question was "Why do you think you should be exempted from taking CLP?".David initiated the answer, contending that our syllabus had complied with the CLP subjects. The guy pinpointed next on me, I conceded that "The period of our legal attachment is the longest compared to another uni, ours is 12 weeks, while other uni is 4 weeks, so we're exposed more to the practical aspect of learning". Raghu hit the interviewer at one point, by telling that "We're familiarized with the English conversation in our daily usage, all of the students here can speak English. There's one student at her attachment place from public uni who can't speak English and responded in BM when people speak English with her".The interviewer seem flabbergasted (yet they know it's not a fabricated statement). Quek bragged about the achievement of the ICRC Moot Comp at International Level, and the panel said that it's not a CRITERIA, but it can be a BONUS POINT.
The final question was "What is your feeling if you will be exempted and call to the Bar?".Everyone has to ask this question. Some said I will feel honoured. As for me, I never intended to practice as an advocate/solicitor. I'm planning to work straight ahead in a legal department of company as 'Legal Exec'.A lazy-ass like me cannot tahan la to chamber somemore after graduating soon and and face all the hardship in the legal profession.So I just give a simple answer, cannot think of better words, I replied "I will be happy".Sounds like a reply from a toddler.
Was tremendously relieved, the interview was over, the 'BLOODY' jurisprudence mid term also over. Both were nightmares. The interview was so tough, I couldn't predict the future of our exemption from CLP, though they said they were impressed with the seniors and some of the interview sessions. I'm just hoping that Zaid Ibrahim will make an announcement on the CBE in short times.
It was unfortunate because I'm not good at talking. Forgive my oratory skills.Yes words are my worst weapon. But it's for the future's sake/I would be embarassed before the panel for remaining silent throughout the interview. I put all my anxiety and 'inferiority complex' away.
The interview began. The first Q popped out, "Do you know what's the meaning of 'without prejudice'?"Ugh,I was perplexed for seconds. I had heard this words before, but never learned or scrupulously checked it's meaning,I'm praying hard that the interviewer won't posed that question to me. Luckily, my fellow comrade, Raghuram volunteered to answer(He told me after the interview that he was familiarized with the term during his attachment). The interviewer seem satisfied with his answer.
The next question was pertaining to the details of the course,"What are the topics under this subject?".I volunteered to answer, since this is an easy question or else I would remained silent throughout the interview.Haha. Both of the panels just nodded.
And the tricky questions began, mostly posed by Mdm Hendon, the ex-president of the Bar Council. I cant recall all the questions, but one was "What is the difference between Bar Council and Malaysian Bar"?Everyone started to stare at each other, hoping one of us could solve the tense.She pointed one by one to answer, but all the answers given by us were wrong.She seem a bit cocky, and gave all of us 5 minutes 'lecture' about the difference.
..it's like the government and its cabinet. Can you see the difference? You can see the Cabinet,but not the government..
The other interviewer asked about the Rules of the Practice and Etiquette."Can an advocate act for himself?"All of us replied 'no'. We were confident with the answer, since an advocate cannot appear in a case where he has to be a witness at the same time. He smirked, and asked "Do you read today's news, concerning Datuk Shafee who sued RPK and there was a comment made by another lawyer that he cannot act for himself?"Once again silence filled the air. My conscience said,"Ugh you cannot expect us to read news la..We were tensed all day long..mane la sempat nk baca paper".Pn Hendon slammed us again for not being aware to the surroundings,lawyers must be updated. And one of us uttered the same matters with my conscience before, she said back "Your life would be more hectic once you do your chambering". Her tongue was so sharp, no wonder a woman like her was a President before.
Questions after questions were bombarded.Mostly relating to the topics under our syllabus, and still ANSWERABLE.Each of us were given space to answer.The interview later asked about the impact of the 1988 judicial crisis.Huan Ren answered this question talking about the intervention of Doctrine of Separation of Powers.The man tricked her with "Why the three bodies should be existed separately"?She talked about "check and balance", something we learned in 1st year which I almost forgot. No wonder Natalie called her "Walking Wikipedia".hehe
The guy keep on testing on our General Knowledge, he inquired on the names of the CJ,President of the COA & CJ of the High Court. I volunteered to answer, since I had memorized all the names during the my attachment at Court.Was fortunate enough, my memory could still recall all the names though 8 months had lapsed. He posed another Bonus Question (as what referred to),"How we should address the Judge of the Industrial Tribunal"?.We were so convinced that it is "Tuan", it was correct.
That hanky-panky ex-president posed another question pertaining to the procedure in the disciplinary proceeding. David answered it, but she said she wants to know the exact term. I said "the investigation should be made if there's a merit, if there's no merit it shall be dismissed". He slammed me for putting the word "a" in front of the word "merit", and said that my answer is right, but the usage of the word is wrong. I was SCREWED again. How could I realized that I make a grammar mistake in such a panic time. Feel like it was a MUET test, the examiner meticulously checked your grammar while you're talking..Huh..
The subsequent question was "Why do you think you should be exempted from taking CLP?".David initiated the answer, contending that our syllabus had complied with the CLP subjects. The guy pinpointed next on me, I conceded that "The period of our legal attachment is the longest compared to another uni, ours is 12 weeks, while other uni is 4 weeks, so we're exposed more to the practical aspect of learning". Raghu hit the interviewer at one point, by telling that "We're familiarized with the English conversation in our daily usage, all of the students here can speak English. There's one student at her attachment place from public uni who can't speak English and responded in BM when people speak English with her".The interviewer seem flabbergasted (yet they know it's not a fabricated statement). Quek bragged about the achievement of the ICRC Moot Comp at International Level, and the panel said that it's not a CRITERIA, but it can be a BONUS POINT.
The final question was "What is your feeling if you will be exempted and call to the Bar?".Everyone has to ask this question. Some said I will feel honoured. As for me, I never intended to practice as an advocate/solicitor. I'm planning to work straight ahead in a legal department of company as 'Legal Exec'.A lazy-ass like me cannot tahan la to chamber somemore after graduating soon and and face all the hardship in the legal profession.So I just give a simple answer, cannot think of better words, I replied "I will be happy".Sounds like a reply from a toddler.
Was tremendously relieved, the interview was over, the 'BLOODY' jurisprudence mid term also over. Both were nightmares. The interview was so tough, I couldn't predict the future of our exemption from CLP, though they said they were impressed with the seniors and some of the interview sessions. I'm just hoping that Zaid Ibrahim will make an announcement on the CBE in short times.
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